Transformation Disaster

So today was the day of the hand in for Transformation, which should have went a lot better than it did. However I pretty this was the work I've handed in for a project so far. I feel that I completely lost enthusiasm with it as we've been working on this project since September which I personally think is far too long, I also kept putting off doing work for it on the basis that we have ages, which soon became a problem when time caught up with me.
So I did what I always do when I'm stuck in a bad position, I panicked. Which is probably the worst thing I could do as I spent far too long on the finally piece and didn't get round to annotating my sketchbooks enough. However at least I did do it and the final piece did get finished but it wasn't to the best standard it could've been.
This isn't however why I'm unhappy with the work that I handed in it;s because I feel that I didn't do the project justice: if I didn't enjoy using a media I completely brushed it off, I didn't do as much experimentation as I possibly could've and I stuck with what I knew. At the beginning on the year I really enjoyed learned new techniques and how to use different medias (such as silk paper, felt making and plaster casting) however as the weeks went on I slowly began to lost interest and I'm not sure why. I don't really have anyone to blame but myself, another problem that came up a lot in this project was that I couldn't ask for help. Or more so that I felt I couldn't ask for help I'm sure if I did the lecturers would've have been happy too. This has been something that I've really struggled with and that I'm not to sure how to get over.
Admitting that I'm struggling has been something that I detest doing, so I rather stubbornly will quite going myself even if I've no clue what I'm doing. Although in a way I feel that day sort of needed to happen as looking back at this past year and looking at the work I handed in I've spotted several problems in the way that I work so I want to work on these and try my best to over come them. That's the plan any way, so whilst I'm quite disappointed in myself it has given me a new goal to work on to hopefully improve myself and my work.

May the 4th be you...

A quick drawing that I did of a female darth maul!

Big bad wolf

So today I got quite a bit of college work done so I rewarded myself with sketching some of the characters for little red riding hood. I'm happy with the way they've turned out, I've started doing small sketches as rewards for myself which is helping me stay inspired and stopping me from getting off track.

The werewolf dressed as grandma was my favourite. Here's the progression of it:

The Glasgow Science Centre

Today my sisters and I went to the Glasgow Science Centre with the SHA group (a youth group for families affected by Huntington's) I haven't actually been to a SHA activity in a long time (almost 2 years I think) so it was nice to see people again. Also as it was the science centre I found some interesting information about the brain and the body that I think I could use in my sketchbook.

This is a persevered human torso! I thought it looked really cool. 

However something quite exciting is that for next Tuesday I've been invited to go along to a meeting with a design company, as the SHA are trying to produce a book about Huntington's as to give to children to help explain what the disease is, how the are feeling and how the disease will effect them. As this is so close to my project work I couldn't turn the chance down and I'm really looking forward to what it will be like!

Productive weekend

Over the weekend I've done quite a few papers in my personal sketchbook which has been really fun, it's nice to make pieces that aren't just for work. These are some of my favourites :)

A slightly more relaxed week

This Monday we looked over the PLP's again but mostly worked on our own. In the afternoon Ewan was back so he spoke to us all about what we were doing and we had a paper making tutorial which was really fun and I really enjoyed. It's something that I had done before when I was at school but it is still really enjoyable and I think that I may make my own paper for my book as it would make the whole thing that little bit more personal.

Tuesday we worked mostly on our own. I created a timeline of my life for the past few years and started looking at brain scans, as that is one of the methods doctors use to determine how to the disease is progressing. I then drew my own brains, created some patterns with the shapes that I created and then from that I made painted one (by folding the paper in half, splashing paint on one side and then folding the paper over to create a symmetrical pattern) these reminded me of ink blots so I think that I'll go on to look at that in more detail.

Friday was the day of the final presentations (last week was a practice). Following David's advice I wrote down what I wanted to say on flash cards so I wouldn't lose my place. I did still stutter a bit and lost my place one however I think it was better than the first one. I also think the using pecha kucha is a good method for me as it's timed so I can't keep rambling when I lose my place. As I'd had my mid mod last week I wrote up a response to brief (what I want to do for my final piece0 whilst others had there mid mods.
We have the next two weeks off for easter so I'm hoping that I getting a fair bit of work done in those two weeks.
Happy Holidays!

Ink blots

Been making my own ink blots today!