I'm really glad that I'm not at college today. Today marks the 5 year anniversary of my Dad's diagnoses of Huntington's Disease and the 3 year anniversary of my Grandad's death. Thankfully I've never had to go to college yet on this day and I'm glad because whilst I've had crap day there, there is just something about this date that makes me feel uneasy. It's like today is the day that my family and I aren't allowed to succeed, it's the day that anything and everything goes wrong, the day that no one else seems to understand why I don't want to talk.
Normally when I feel like this I do something to take my mind off it but on this day it just doesn't feel right, like enjoying myself would be an insult to my family. So I sit and think, and think, and think to point it's a song's stuck on repeat. Pretty sure all this isn't helping my lack of ideas for this project, but all I want to do is sleep, sleep and wake up to everything being on, everything being easy. I'm not stupid I know that's not happening, nothing just becomes easy overnight.
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