Last Day

Today was really our last in the college (although technically our last day should be June 13th but we had no reason to be in as we've finished everything). It was quite strange this past year seems to have gone so quickly, it seems like only a few weeks ago I was taking my first steps in the classroom and seeing everyone's faces for the first time. It's been a good year but not quite what I expected, my classmates have really helped me a lot over the past few months.
I've learned a lot about myself and the way that I work, I found that I really enjoyed the written parts of the course (PDP and Contextual) which is something I never thought I'd say, I'm terrible at spelling and when I was at school I detested writing essays they always seemed to take forever but this year it was fun, looking into a subject I enjoyed and found interesting. I've discovered that even though when I was at school all I ever did was painting it's not what I want to do anymore (I've barely done any paintings this year). I want to open myself up to trying new things and hopefully I'll find what it is I want to do!
I'm really looking forward to next year and the opportunities that it'll bring.

Essay!

So excited about handing the essay in today! Weirdly I've always struggled with written work but I've found in their course it's not as bad as I thought. I think it's done to the fact I enjoyed what I was writting about.

Some close ups of my final piece!

Celebratory Dinner!

I wasn't in the best of moods when coming out of Dee's class at the end of the day but I was quickly cheered up by Amanda and some other second years as they had all passed their presentations too! So we decided to make the trip to McDonalds (not exactly the fanciest of places for a meal but still). When we were there we talked about course work and it really made me feel better about my situation and it's not the worst one to be in. The way home was funny to as Claira had taken a balloon back with her and she inhaled the helium form it and started sing "I see trees of green" it was hilarious!

Transformation Disaster

So today was the day of the hand in for Transformation, which should have went a lot better than it did. However I pretty this was the work I've handed in for a project so far. I feel that I completely lost enthusiasm with it as we've been working on this project since September which I personally think is far too long, I also kept putting off doing work for it on the basis that we have ages, which soon became a problem when time caught up with me.
So I did what I always do when I'm stuck in a bad position, I panicked. Which is probably the worst thing I could do as I spent far too long on the finally piece and didn't get round to annotating my sketchbooks enough. However at least I did do it and the final piece did get finished but it wasn't to the best standard it could've been.
This isn't however why I'm unhappy with the work that I handed in it;s because I feel that I didn't do the project justice: if I didn't enjoy using a media I completely brushed it off, I didn't do as much experimentation as I possibly could've and I stuck with what I knew. At the beginning on the year I really enjoyed learned new techniques and how to use different medias (such as silk paper, felt making and plaster casting) however as the weeks went on I slowly began to lost interest and I'm not sure why. I don't really have anyone to blame but myself, another problem that came up a lot in this project was that I couldn't ask for help. Or more so that I felt I couldn't ask for help I'm sure if I did the lecturers would've have been happy too. This has been something that I've really struggled with and that I'm not to sure how to get over.
Admitting that I'm struggling has been something that I detest doing, so I rather stubbornly will quite going myself even if I've no clue what I'm doing. Although in a way I feel that day sort of needed to happen as looking back at this past year and looking at the work I handed in I've spotted several problems in the way that I work so I want to work on these and try my best to over come them. That's the plan any way, so whilst I'm quite disappointed in myself it has given me a new goal to work on to hopefully improve myself and my work.

May the 4th be you...

A quick drawing that I did of a female darth maul!

Big bad wolf

So today I got quite a bit of college work done so I rewarded myself with sketching some of the characters for little red riding hood. I'm happy with the way they've turned out, I've started doing small sketches as rewards for myself which is helping me stay inspired and stopping me from getting off track.

The werewolf dressed as grandma was my favourite. Here's the progression of it: